Have you ever jumped out into the middle of an intersection to make a left turn while the light was still green awaiting the oncoming traffic to slow up so you can make that left turn? Most often, once you inch out into the intersection you will get a break in traffic to go...but sometimes you are caught in the middle of the intersection and there isn't a break in the traffic and the light turns red. What are you to do? Well, most of the time you feel forced to turn on red praying there are no cops around.
I have been dealing with a particular situation this week that I compare to being stuck in that intersection, and the light has turned red and I am forced to go through the light knowing it wasn't right for me. I believed I had received confirmation in my spirit to start a new business venture. I heard in my spirit "I don't care what you do, but do something". So, I stepped out in faith........well, nothing about this venture happened the way I had hoped. I knew from the beginning it wasn't my "playing field" nor where I'm gifted and talents lie. But, none the less I took a chance and proceeded through the intersection with the light turning red. Not that I didn't hear God, but I was seeing through the eyes of my flesh. I know the connection is a Divine connects, however, I just wasn't seeing clearly.
While having a little quiet time this morning, something I heard in my spirit earlier in the week came back to me. As I began to pray and go into an atmosphere of worship, it was all very clear within my heart ,which is where all revelation begins, I believe. I thought, "Lord, if this wasn't it, why did you let me go this far and what about the money we invested in it"? His response was, "it's not that it was wrong, you just made the wrong turn and the money....well, I gave the money to you and can give it back......pressed down shaken together and running over". Sometimes, I have to let you turn left in order for you to go right. Wow, I had been sensing all along that this was not the path for me, but my flesh was trying to make it right. Part of it felt right, because I love to drink coffee and I figured it would be an easy sell, but the selling part I know is not me. Why do we always try to make something fit! I know when God releases a blessing in your life, it comes without sorrow and trying to accomplish this thing from the very beginning was nothing but pure confusion...and our God is NOT a God of confusion.
Many of you who read this might say, wow she get's it wrong often and yes, that would be true. But, I will be the first one to admit it and share it in hopes that someone else will see it before it begins to form in your own lives and make the "right turn". My brother-in-law once told me....."Trice, God cares more about you trying to hear him (developing a relationship and desiring an ear to hear) than He does about you missing or misunderstanding what's being said". Well Brian, I believe you are right! I miss him often, but when I do finally get it right..........it's always on time. And always more than what my little mind could ever comprehend!
Had I not made that wrong turn, knowing it didn't feel right, I would not have been in a position to continue to seek God for direction and revelation of what is right for me. So, by knowing what I'm not to do, it makes room for the things I know I am called to do and that is devoting my time to ministry and serving God's people. There is no quick fix in this walk. The bible says, "your gifts will make room for you and bring you before great people". I have to trust God to know that as I continue to pursue my purpose daily, it will lead me smack into my wealthy place.
Well, I choose to follow the path laid before me and I am going to stop trying to get in where I clearly don't fit in. I used the scripture, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me", to try and make this venture work and it didn't. Not because the word of God isn't true, (because I do believe I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me) when I'm traveling in the right lane and doing what I'm called to do.
I pray this word will be a blessing to someone.
Also, Happy Mother's Day to all
Patrice Thompson
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